[08/05/2025] - so much stuff !
gah!!!!! im getting sososo exciting about living with holly :DD
I've been a little bad at points but things are way better from last post ^^. i am hanging out with so many people.... fucking rad.
realized that i can spend time with people before work and not like exclusively on fridays lol.
I've hung out a LOT with holly, watched superman w/jade, went to an arcade with bird, tabletop games.. Went on a date with someone 2 weeks ago and it was really fun!
I'm just saying names that probably mean nothing to anyone reading, but i mostly use this as a diary tbh, so idgaf.
anyways - they're rad as hell!! (and also have been on this site woahhhg... hi rally if youre here).
We went to an arcade i've been to a couple times - it has black knight 2000, addams family pinball, AND crazy taxi ?!?!?! :O
hoooooly shit..... the ideal habitat for jamers.
I think the key to a good date is wearing my knee high converse and playing some ddr type machine and getting dead tired afterwards.
each time this has occured it has been good (did this the time i met holly :])
We just played a buncha stuff, i think i rambled for like 30 minutes about pinball. I got very excited that they were
extremely confused as to what the hell baby pacman was, and that i got to explain it.
At somepoint we went off to some secluded corner so i could show them a youtube poop. thats awesome.
we got food afterwards and hugged !!! presumably went very well. was gonna meet them again but they slept in and missed it -_-;;
hopefully we can this week! just gonna chill at their place and play games.
I'm getting really into mythic bastionlands. holly is a really good GM !! i mean i guess i don't have much frame of reference.
but still! i'm really enjoying it and like her storytelling a lot. I also like the guys im playin' with !
one of them is holly's friend who i will shortly be living with and the other is someone i've matched with on like
every single dating app in existence which is a little silly.
Something curious is that despite everything being good, some part of me is craving for something terrible to happen to me.
it was Not Good last week, but doing better. I messed up a little bit and my Mom got mad at me (for a complete valid reason),
and i just kinda. broke. i dunno. I think my biggest fear at the moment is being a failure. I kinda am.
Doing terrible in classes, living with my parents/living off of their money, and zero career goals.
I decided a while ago that the thing that fulfills me the most is the relationships i have with others.
But thats not really 'productive', is it? i dunno. weird stuff to think about.
Been selling tons of old games, pokemon cards, collectibles, etc. and HOLY SHIT !!!
I got an original xbox, and a sega genesis, fuck yes dude. I got Odama, I JUST BOUGHT CHIBI-ROBO! !!!!! ! !!!
im so fucking hyped, its got the manual and everything. One of the pokemon cards alone was $200 and i figured
fucking yeah, sure dude. thats chibi-robo money.
I should probably be putting that money into savings to be fully real, but i'm getting paid a good amount rn,
and how i view it is that i'm trading these things in, y'know? maybe thats dumb. i have the freedom to have fun though.
and im gonna do my best to not take it for granted.
i also got this. hard as fuck.
I've probably got a ton more to say, but i'm getting sleepy twt
love you!!!!!
jamers