[10/31/2025] - woaw,,,,
Dude I'm 100% certain i made a blog 11 but it doesn't exist anywhere and i feel like im crazy.....
Maybe I just started writing out something like a dozen times then just didn't make it past a couple paragraphs.
surely this will be the one... wow!!! I haven't really said anything much of substance since before moving.
I've gotta do a solo vlog again sometime! I love sharing/perserving (its perserving... no one looks at this shit)
little parts of my life a lot! but i also think me saying whatever the hell's on my mind at the time is fun.
as suspected, very little website updates following school :( theres a lot i wanna do! i DO have the time for it! but when
I live with someone it is so so easy to not do anything, and just spend time with them pretty much doing jack shit.
God knows if i'll ever actually finish that glover shrine, but SURELY i'll get writing up! maybe. idk when. but maybe.
anyways idgaf about that - I'm really really happy!!
- Activing living with the person I love.
- A few weeks ago had a date w/ Rally which was really nice.
- Two weeks ago met up with a girl I'd been talking to for a bit (met on grindr and she had seen my dick on reddit -_-;;)
- A week ago, met up at an arcade bar with a buddy I've been playing tabletop games w/ for a while (Rose!!!), and we eventually kissed.*
- Last weekend went to the girl I've been talking to for a bit's Halloween party and kissed like 10 people !! woahhh
- Went to a show and me holly and rose made out w/ eachother for a couple hours, and then spent the night with rose ^_^
- yesterday went to a little horror attraction PLUS GOT SPITROASTED!!!! YAYAYAY!!! what a wonderful life.....
god invented yuri so i could live in it.
*Following up on this here I like them a lot!!! we HAD matched and talked on every single dating app known to man, and then never actually
planned anything, but wowee! i didn't expect it to go like that, much less escalate that quickly. We were both a little tipsy, and went
to a little spot that a couple people have taken me to, next to the river and under some train tracks. we did some graffiti and then
in the dark, stared crazy longingly at each other's eyes. I simply had no choice to ask my famous question: ".......d'you wanna kiss?".
I'm more than familar with the feeling of falling in love. its my favorite thing in the world. I feel kinda. unwell about how fast i felt it, but. I like them!! i wanna spend a lot of time with it :]]
Since then we've hung out pretty much every day, and doubled our amount of future plans each time, its fucking awesome. I love feeling like
there's endless things to do with someone :DD. and then i come home to holly OR all three of us are hanging out together????
this last week has been like. some of the most fulfilling stuff thats happened in my life. put three people who have miscellaneous
attachment issues together and have them makeout, surely we will all be normal.
right now they both have a flannel of mine and i have rose's :D. I dunno. that makes me really really happy.
maybe this is like an insane person thing to say but i think to love someone is to allow yourself to relinquish apart of yourself to them.
I like doing that physically a lot, too. giving stuff I've had for a while, and still care about to people.
something like a little keychain, or piece of clothing (clothing's usually temporary though.) i also like clothing cause
we get to carry eachothers smells around and thats fucking awesome. smells are crazy important to me w/ people i like. maybe im just a weird little freak :P
we also played nightmare! its a board game that i've had forever- was my dad's but just never got the chance to play it. you've gotta put in
a vhs tape, which controls the game. check this shit out, its fucking awesome. we WILL play all of them.
theres like 6 more in the series. Have not been able to stop quoting the gatekeeper, horrible new stim. I love his undiscernable
accent. ANswerrrr mee yoou MAGGOT!!!!!!
also, yesterday! we watched some horror analog horror series for a bit, and then watched godzilla finals wars. or. I guess me and another
buddy did (after the james spitroast, we collected another buddy we also play tabletop games with). immediate sidenote, but I dunno why I'm so adverse to saying
certain peoples names. ive named other people. im going to keep this up for no reason. anyways, Holly and Rose played a drinking game during
the analog horror (i couldnt...... designated driver), and both of them were sleeping on my chest throughout the movie and it was fucking awesome.
I had very little blood circulation in my arms, BUT!! it was awesome. Me and my other buddy were shooting the shit while watching, and it was
really fun.
uhhhhhhh what else.. school kinda blows rn but i'll get through it. I got on prog and instead of making me horny, its just been making me
crazy crazy sentimental and improving my sleep, so like. i guess ill take it!! (granted my estrogen and spiro doses got doubled, so. perhaps
that has a little effect). my dick also stopped working for a little bit. could not get hard, so i've lowered my dosage for now.......
I was feeling kind of BAD earlier today. Was alone for the first time in a while, and immediatley, i just. did nothing
like always. but i think thats okay sometimes! i dunno. i get frustrated with myself a lot and dont actually know what the purpose of writing
this was gonna be. womp womp.
its halloween! been watching a buncha the friday the 13th movies w/ holly (seen the first 5 and wow! 4 and 5 suck ASS. 3's awesome though).
was gonna dress up as parappa the rapper but the costume looks fucking bad because its just jeans, a beanie, and a blue shirt :(
couldn't even pivot back to marge cause i dont have the dress... first halloween costumeless in years.......... sad. gonna go hangout with
friends! might record stuff, might not. gonna have fun! ^_^ perhaps write more later before publishing, but who knows