[03/12/2026] - brain spew

ah!!! hihi!!! ^_^
its been a WHILE since i've blogged. god i want to do more with this site.
i think i say that in every single one of these, lol. I've added a ton of stuff here at least!
My primary goals are to overhaul music a bit, and finally add a photography page. I see these as
relatively easy tasks which seem super easy to do. Just something to slowly chip away at.
Generally, just update the site as I see fit, and then after focus on new pages.
Here's my list of ideas:

- Glover shrine (WIP)
- New room tour
- Video Game Commercial Shrine
- Disc Art Shrine
- Console UI Shrine
- New logos for everything
- Jamers Outfit maker
- WRITING. GOD how have i not done this yet.
- Add game collection, wishlist, and backlog to About Me
- Add scavenger hunt across entire site
- Nintendo Comic Archive

i think thats mostly it....

i'm 22 now! crazy stuff. My birthday was fucking wonderful. Day before went to seattle, then
Went on a walk with my girlfriends (i have 2 now!!!), tagged a spot that's special to all of us,
got chinese takeout, and then took acid with em. wow!! psychedelics are crazy. @-@

Trying thatfor the first time was interesting in general, but i think it made me really reaffirm how
important these people are to me. Idk. I love these guys! i'm gonna put ever effort i can to ensure i spend
the rest of my life with them. That's what i want in this life. Feels nice to have a goal for once.
Whenever I'd start to feel a little bleh, I'd just go over and lay next to one or both of em, and
without fail it would work to make me happy. by god there were dips in my emotions,
but i certainly don't regret the experience. For the first like 2 hours my dick was the hardest
its ever been which amuses me greatly.
Absolutely gonna try other psychedelics in the future (in moderation, obviously)

While I was on acid i had the wonderful Idea of having a txt document open so I present to you,
dear viewer "acid doc":

i did eventually get mario sunshine to work but i downloaded the most fucked up iso in the world
and everything was black and white and appearing as if it were printed in a newspaper. i have no
idea at all how that occured. next trip i wanna boot up half life 2.....

'sides that! perhaps i have greed of epic proportions, but a little sad i haven't been on dates w/ anyone new.
I just like meeting people! and dates specifically seem like the only way i really can?
Me and Holly have been hanging out with two guys consistently but besides that. might meet a couple
of Rose's pals, so. maybe i'm complaining about nothin'.
I think its just. so consistently I almost make plans with someone new, then it fizzles out and we never talk.
sucks :(

Mostly, I fear that because I have two partners, I will let them take up all of my time,
and while thats cool as fuck, and i love them, wow! I need to be less dependant on them!
There was a little chunk of time where I thought I would lose both of them around the same time.
It made me realize I had no purpose at all in this life. no job, no aspirations, no nothing, besides them
Not like I wouldn't have been able to recover without them, just. I NEED to get out more -_-;;

uhmmmm quick back to back what i've been getting into:
Protomen act III liner notes!!! god i fucking LOVE the protomen GRAHHHHH!!! really really excited
for act 4 or act iii disc 2, whatever. It has to fucking happen, right?? surely. im not coping.
Upon initial listen I was a little dissapointed with the lack of mega man, felt a lot more like a
sequel to act ii, rather than a continuation of the story, but that would absolutley be rectified
should there be more.

I've gotten CRAZY CRAZY back into Don't Hug Me I'm Scared. Watched the webseries with holly, and then
the TV series, and god. Duck guy is my comfort character, i love him so goddamn much. we've both had
a terrible stim of suddenly singing wakey wakey (from the unaired pilot.), and its wonderful.

I played wild woody. I fucking hate wild woody. I DID unlock the secret boobs scene though.

Been watching a shitton of It's Always Sunny with Holly and Rose, its become our default thing to do
and i love it so much. I like mac.

Was telling myself I'd sit down and play Ocarina of Time forever, and only just now i finally have.
I've played the child timeline section an infinite amount of times, but I don't think I've explored the
world all that much, strangely enough? As of writing I just finished Dodongo's cavern, but. man. Easy
to see why this was considered the greatest game of all time. I wanna play all the 3D zelda games with
Rose super badly. I've also been playing LEGO Batman with them, and. God it's just nice.

We've talked at length about this, but we're so oddly similar in our upbringings regarding what we
were into, and I'm really really happy we can re-experience all this stuff together. I remember
specifically sometime in middle school I had this wish that I could be with someone just so I could
play all these games with them. Take them to my favorite spots, spots I deemed special to me.
Now I can. and I have. Its really really wonderful.

Been playing Chulip and Infamous 2 with Holly!! I've never beat it (chulip) surprisingly enough, and
she wasn't intially super into it, but it seems like we fw me having the controller, and her being an
outsider trying to figure out what I should do. Infamous 2 is awesome.... Infamous is the main reason I
know her to begin with (was on her dating profile and i thought she was cool...), and the first game kinda
blows just a little bit lol. this one is way better. Super excited for festival of blood, and god I want
to use the PS Move controllers SO SO badly as cole.

uhhhhh Super super excited for the Steel Ball Run adaptation, HLVRAI2, and. I dunno actually. thought there
would be more to write down. Mostly just looking at old stuff. Seen a bizarre amount of irate gamer i guess??

Oh! I've got super super into analog media. Started with a little Wallace and Gromit boxset I got for 50 cents,
and has since spiralled a little.... Gotten to the point where i've begun to buy tapes specifically to record over.
I have nirvana the band the show webseries on tape, and even made a fake slipcover and label for it. its been fun!!
I have intentions to do the same to seasons 1-3 of irate gamer, at least season 1 of AVGN, the Sonic OVA, and perhaps
lain or flcl. idk. seeing all of them and knowing theyre playable, and a way to show this media to other people
make me happy.

Similarly have gotten into cassettes a bit, to a much lesser degree. Its what rose is using to record all their new
music (they played a song they wrote about me at one of their special spots, and. gah. first time i cried in front of them.
They're making a whole album, one side being the holly side and one side being the james side. fucking awesome.)
i really badly wanna make at least one song for both of them. A while ago I wrote lyrics for a song a little about holly,
and I have specific ideas for a rose song. it'd just be me shittily recording lyrics, guitar, drum, and bass all seperately,
but i dunno. I wanna create stuff for 'em! I wanna make a CD for Holly and maybe a cassette for rose. I have plans and intentions...
I've decided to collect bird song casettes after finding a couple for 25¢. I kept going into rose's room by myself to play
this while on acid. "I'm going to bird world", i said. I'm awesome. ANYWAYS!!!! I dunno. I think its a neat medium!

I just have this need to create which has not been fueled by much of anything. I wanna make things for my favorite people,
and I want to make things for myself. It is absolutley neccesary for my brain that I do this. even if its something
as simple as putting something on tape, then making a little cover for it, thats something!!

bombhead calls to me.....

uhhhhh got further information about my girlfriend in prison. sexual assault in the first degree. dunno anything about it!!!
She was fully sentenced for five years, so like. maybe i can finally ask her about the charges, but fucking christ.
She sent me the letter. I'm the only one who's tried to contact her at all. From the information I got on my own
about the case, it seems she plead psychosexual. Glad nothing much happened to me but. i dunno man. feels weird.
interesting james lore i guess.

brain spew over. seeya!!!! love you <3

-jamers!!

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